The power of one

100_0347Continued from Eyewitness to history…

Christmas at Belsen was rather different to homely war-time Christmas in the quiet Dorset village where I’d lived before being uprooted to join my new parents.

Having been at war since I was a baby, my father had more experience of leading tanks into battle than bringing up a shy nine- year- old girl, while my stepmother knew nothing about children. We all had to make the best of it, and one of the best things was visiting the Duke of Hanover’s palace, a little way out of Belsen – and splendid it was. (What had he made of the concentration camp on his doorstep?)

I was taken occasionally for Sunday lunch there, and for the children’s Christmas Party. We played games like pass- the – parcel, and then musical chairs in the ballroom lined with huge gilt mirrors, under shining chandeliers, slipping and sliding on the marble floor while little gilt chairs were subtracted from the circle. Then, when the party ended, like nearly every other party of my childhood, we danced Sir Roger de Coverley, with the parents standing round clapping in time to the music.

Some weekends, we drove out to the Duke’s hunting lodge in the middle of a dark pine forest, where deer darted out onto the road, and wild boar lurked. This gemutlich little pile was now the officers club, run by a friendly middle-aged German couple.

Had they always been the stewards of this place, I wondered later? Did they transfer their loyalties to their new employers in the interim, and hold the place in trust until the Duke regained his ancestral homes – if indeed he did? Anyway, their speciality was delicious, lavishly sugared doughnuts, stuffed with butter icing. The glory of these doughnuts in a life of total gastronomic deprivation and war-time rations was utterly memorable (Did the Duke enjoy them too, before and after us?)

Doctor Muller, the German vet, called on us regularly, whether our various dogs needed his attentions or not. He regarded my parents – or at any rate, their gin bottle – as friends. In return for the generous helpings of gin and tonic he sipped – unobtainable in civilian Germany – he would bring my stepmother specimens of the many amazing varieties of exotic orchids which he grew. I thought they were awful, not like flowers at all, but fantastically petalled and bearded and contorted in strange sharp pinks and acid greens and yellows. He would arrive bearing this gift, and bend over my stepmother’s hand, clicking his heels together and bowing.

After some months of laborious social intercourse – his English became more broken with the quantity of gin consumed – we were invited to his house in Bergen to meet his wife.

We had tea on exquisite Meissen china, but because they could get sugar at the time, but no flour, we had no cakes or biscuits, but dipped sour apples from the garden into the sugar, as a substitute for cake. The grownups managed with a cup of tea. The doctor’s wife was a fair-haired, washed-out, melancholy woman. When I exclaimed over the beautiful porcelain, she explained that they’d hidden it with all their other treasures in a hole under the cellar, so the invaders wouldn’t loot them.

Even as a child I thought this was rather tactless. Invaders? Was she talking about us? She also reminisced about the awfulness of the war to my parents, and she and her daughter Suzanne, described the anguish of seeing their poor, wounded soldiers in blood- stained bandages in passing trains. Back home I heard my stepmother snort: “If they saw those trains, how come they didn’t know about the others!”

Years later, I realised she was referring to the trains of the condemned heading for Belsen. In her book: ‘The Children’s House of Belsen, Hetty Verolme described the platform at Celle lined with thirty SS men and Alsation dogs straining at the leash as the train pulled in. They then, eleven hundred young and old from Holland, sick or exhausted, straggled all the miles to Belsen on foot and apparently unobserved by the local population, who denied all knowledge of the camp when the British authorities discovered it and questioned them.

But the friendship limped on. One summer’s day, the vet’s two younger children, Hildegarde and Carljurgen, thirteen and fourteen, the one in dirndl skirt and long, white lace socks, the other in leather lederhosen, long, white lace socks and black boots, took me driving in their farm cart.

We rumbled and swayed down narrow farm tracks between fields of blazing blue and purple lupins shimmering with tiny butterflies in the sunshine. Carljurgen let me hold the reins. He avoided that other field, where there were miles and miles of burnt -out German tanks my parents had shown me one dank winter’s day.

It was another ten years before I read Anne Franck’s diaries. It came as a shock to me then, to realise that I had been living in the same place where she had lived briefly, suffered and died.

I’m a chronic re-reader of most books I’ve read, yet I cannot bear to re-read her chronicle of life lived beneath the terror of Nazi inhumanity. But as the years have gone by, her shining spirit has risen above the degradation of that Nazi oppression, and has become a beacon of light.

Though the evil that was Nazism destroyed her physical body, the power of her courage, intelligence, thirst for life, and sheer goodness was not destroyed. She still inspires people from all over the world to visit the building where she and her family hid, and they travel to the memorial to her and her sister Margot at Bergen- Belsen.

It‘s mainly due to Anne Franck that the world today is conscious of Bergen- Belsen… there were many other concentration camps just as bad all over the Nazi empire – nearly three hundred – and many of them are forgotten. But Bergen- Belsen has become symbolic of them all, and serves to remind us all of events and atrocities that must never be repeated.

Teenager Anne wrote prophetically: ‘I want to be useful or bring enjoyment to all people, even those I’ve never met. I want to go on living even after my death! And that’s why I’m so grateful to God for having given me this gift, which I can use to develop myself and to express all that’s inside me.’
In death this is exactly what she did achieve, she has gone on living, her words have been both useful and enjoyable, and her life and her death an amazing and triumphant testament to the power of One.


Food for threadbare gourmets
Winter and comfort food, and a love affair with the crock pot. Last week I discovered it was possible to bake whole potatoes in their jackets in the crock pot, instead of using the oven for just one potato! Just prick them with a fork, drizzle a bit of olive oil over them and wrap them in foil. I cooked two medium sized potatoes on high for three to four hours… it depends on the size… but they come to no harm when checked for softness towards the end of the cooking time. Sliced in half horizontally, gently mashed with butter and sprinkled with grated cheese they’re a filling, comforting meal on their own. Naturally, virtuous people have some green vegetables with them… I had some Brussels sprouts!

Food for thought
To be nobody but yourself in a world that is doing its best night and day to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle any human being ever fights and never stop fighting.


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21 responses to “The power of one

  1. There was so much denial in Germany and elsewhere that anyone ever knew of the camps other than the staff of course that I wonder if people were actually able to shut out the memory of the suffering that passed them by. No-on ever seems to acknowledge the trains and their cargo to say how awful it was, how cruel and inhuman it was.
    I’ve recently seen two episodes of Who Do You Think You Are where the guests have been told of where their families were taken to the camps and no-one complained at the injustice. I was in tears for both. In tears because of what we seem capable of accepting and even doing ourselves to others.
    xxx Huge Hugs xxx


    • Interesting what you say, David… I ‘ve just been reading a book about 1946, Apparently most Germans has been taken in by HItler and felt they were the victims in the war, so they really couldn’t accept the reality and the guilt of the camps…., and also there were so many Nazis that the allies just had to accept -after some mine disasters caused by no qualified men because the Nazis had been fired, that nothing would work if they took out all the guilty men !!!


  2. This is a wonderful story – thank you for sharing it. I found myself drawn in completely, and would love to read more. More soon please! Jx


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  4. There are only a few stories/books which I like to read over and over again, the Diary of Anne Frank is one of them. Each time the end draws near, I find myself saying, “oh please be safe, don’t get caught.” As if by reading it again and again, I might be able to change the outcome! Your life story is extraordinary too. 🙂


  5. I visited the Anne Frank house in Amsterdam many years ago, and the sheer ingenuity and foresight of Mr. Frank in constructing it made a powerful impression on me.

    It always gets me that if Anne had lasted just a few more months, she might have survived the war. What a tragic waste.

    I loved hearing your childhood story and the e.e. cummings quote. Wish I could see that hunting lodge and palace — sounds beautiful!


  6. Oh, this made me cry and your history is simply amazing.


  7. Certainly is inspiring to think that a child triumphed over such evil. Your account of life in those historic times really has added a layer of understanding to my own view of those times. Thank you for what must have been a labor of love and angst to write this down.


    • Thank you Ardys, I really appreciated what you said…
      I thought about the last half of your comment (as I was making the bed) and I realise that it isn’t so much a labour of love and angst, but a very satisfying thing to share what felt like the amazing events of history that I watched, and also the fascinating vignettes of people coping with disaster and chaos and the aftermath of HItler., and their refusal to face defeat, and their various forms of denial or is all still so vivid in my memory

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  8. Valerie, your posts are like complete, full-course meals, rich, wholesome, wholly satisfying. I love the details of your time in Belsen, especially the images of you children dancing Sir Roger de Coverley at the end of your party (wow–we never did that–our parties stretched to treasure hunts, Pin the Tail on the Donkey, and Squeak, Piggy, Squeak) and riding in the farm cart with the German children, complete with dirndl skirt and lederhosen. Then as lavish Christmas parties were thrown at a Duke’s palace, the doctor’s wife and others like her either knew nothing or merely said nothing about those other trains just nearby. But you don’t stop there. You leave us with not one, but three memorable final courses: the uplifting words of Anne Frank, full of the joy of life despite everything; the comforting recipe for a baked potato on a winter’s night; and finally, the courage and true nobility of being oneself. Thank you!
    P.S. Have your read Life After Life, by Kate Atkinson. The scenes in Germany reminded me of parts of that novel, while I highly recommend.


    • Oops, sorry about the multiple typos in the P.S. It should have read: Have you read Life After Life, by Kate Atkinson? The scenes in Germany reminded me of that novel, which I highly recommend.


    • Dear Josna,
      What a wonderful, satisfying analysis of my blog… I realise that one of the joys of writing is to receive from a reader their interpretation and added insights to what one has written. With your gift for words and understanding.and vivid comments you have given me such a gift…I am grateful, thank you, good friend..

      No I haven’;t read the Kate Atkinson book but will try to find it….

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  9. It’s no wonder that you seem to have such a wise and open attitude to life after some of the experiences you had in your formative years Valerie.


  10. Once again I return here to a rich read, I can only ever thank you. I think you ask an important question, how could so many be so blind. The answer is simple, at least for me. They had to be blind, it was the only way they could survive. If they saw, they would have had to rise up, compassion and humanity would have demanded it otherwise they would have had to accept their complicity.

    Today, most in Germany acknowledge it happened and it was terrible. They say though, ‘we didn’t know’. In the US on the other hand, most in a certain part of our nation are trying to re-write our history.


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